We went to our 10 week scan yesterday. I woke up feeling edgy. I ate my lunch feeling edgy. I got dressed at 1pm when the appointment was for 4pm. Because I was feeling anxious, and edgy. So I try to relax and read some of the information leaflets Apeman brought home from the maternity hospital a few weeks ago (I checked myself in at 7 weeks due to minor bleeding).
Apeman got me the following pregnancy related information pamplets:
1. Eating for two
3. Pre-menstrual Syndrome (??) Apparently Apeman thought PMS is a type of pregnancy symptom.
I am one of those really annoying people who turn up half an hour early for their appointments - even for waxing. So as usual I was half an hour early.
Fortunately my doctor was happy to see me (because he had a gap in appointments yesterday) so he ushered me into his office as soon as I walked into his practice. Initially he said why don't we try to do a pelvic scan, maybe we can see something there instead of having to go vaginally. I said okay. He rolled the scan across my pelvic region over and over again - nothing. Just masses of muscle can be seen on the screen - no gestational sac. No baby.
The doctor explained to me that it is because I have a big pelvic scar that was in the way (from my ovary exitus surgery) - so he didn't want to press any harder to get the picture. Let's go vaginal probe. He said remove your pants and we will try again.
Like my life depended on it, I pulled off my pants and panties in a hurry as soon as the doctor walked away.
My sweet Apeman came to help me.
`Don't worry babe, slow down, it's okay'.
Doctor came back - the vaginal probe feels alot larger than my scan at 8 weeks, or maybe because I am so swollen inside it seems to take ages for him gently ease the probe to the right spot.
Suddenly on the screen we see a blob. A small blob. Smaller than the image we saw during our 8 week scan. I was told to use my hands to support my buttocks so they can be lifted up slightly. It seemed to help a little.
`Ah...there's the little one, and there's the heartbeat'.
Apeman giggled a little upon seeing his unborn's heartbeat.
`How come it seemed so small?' I asked.
`It's because the baby is sitting at angle to us this time, so you are looking down at the baby's head or rump'.
Suddenly - on the screen I see something jerked. I saw a tiny little `branch' jerked outwards suddenly and then retreated.
`That's either the arm or leg, most probably the arm because they are longer than the legs at the moment.' Explained doc.
I started to tear up and smiled for the first time that day.
Doc tapped on the screen and said to my sweet little bub - `Come on, do it again for mom and dad.'
As if the baby heard him, one of the limbs jerked out again - this time a little wave, then retreated.
I thought I died and went to heaven. Last night I told Apeman the day we had today was one the happiest days of my life - so far.