No More Questions

Negative again.  Lord please have mercy on my soul. 

I have done all the crying and wailing – after once again getting a negative on Mother’s Day.  Anybody who comes within 10 metres of me bearing a gift of pink carnations and a box of chocolate (with a bow on it) risks physical attack by deranged woman.

At this stage, after 13 (14?) cycles, you might think – shouldn’t you just stop and spare yourself?  Should you just look IT in the eye and say, I LOSE.

All I know right now is, I don’t just want a baby, I want to be a mother.  However it takes. 

Once I regroup I will come back with a plan – and believe me I have a good plan in place.  I have so much in me to keep going I must be the happiest disappointed person today in my clinic.  In the mean time I am faced with the aftermath and bloodbath.

Thanks so much to those who dropped by my website and rewarding me with such beautiful word of encouragement – this world need more mothers like you and I wish for you all dreams to come true.